In Satanism we all learn to be ourselves, who we truly are on a soul level. Sometimes it takes a lifetime to understand who we are and what we want. But that does not mean that we are completely lost until then, just on a constant journey of self-discovery. There are times when we are wrong about something. When that happens, analyse the situation and learn from it. So many times this happens and I see it almost everyday. One SS will try to tell another how to meditate or what meditations they should do. What it all boils down to is what your soul is telling you. The soul is your best compass for what meditations you need. It does not matter if you have been dedicated a year or five. We all start somewhere different. If you have a question, ask Satan and the gods for guidance and then Void. Many times our answers will not come from verbal telepathy but from subtle influences throughout the day. One last thing, take everything you read regardless of who or where you got this information, and form your own understanding. Regardless of your sex or orientation, you will not be slotted into a predetermined place in Society. You will have choices just like we do now. We will be put in areas that fit us as an individual, not our sex or who we decide to love.
Do not worry about the future so much, focus on getting the things done right here and now. Let everything fall into place. Focusing on your own advancement pays off for others as well. For if you unlock the knowledge and wisdom you can share it with others. If you are always worried about the progression of others constantly, then when do you get the time needed for your own soul? This is in no way narcissistic, but a necessary path to Godhead. I have done this myself, and have gotten lost in trying to find who I am; especially my sexual orientation. But in all reality if we just meditate and advance; our soul will reveal the answers we seek. So whenever you begin to worry or feel confused, just meditate and void. We all get excited and want to take on a major meditation program; and ignore the fact that it will be extremely difficult and strenuous. And at some point you have to drop something, setting you back. The manipulation of raising and lowering Bio-electricity is a very sensitive practice that must be done with caution. If you raise too much, it may hurt your mind, body and nervous system. If you let it drop too fast or too far, then you could have a wide range of negative consequences. Something that I have been told over and over again by The Gods is to be patient and relax. All good things come in time, be free and meditate.