In Satanism we all learn to be ourselves, who we truly are on a soul level. Sometimes it takes a lifetime to understand who we are and what we want. But that does not mean that we are completely lost until then, just on a constant journey of self-discovery. There are times when we are wrong about something. When that happens, analyse the situation and learn from it. So many times this happens and I see it almost everyday. One SS will try to tell another how to meditate or what meditations they should do. What it all boils down to is what your soul is telling you. The soul is your best compass for what meditations you need. It does not matter if you have been dedicated a year or five. We all start somewhere different. If you have a question, ask Satan and the gods for guidance and then Void. Many times our answers will not come from verbal telepathy but from subtle influences throughout the day. One last thing, take everything you read regardless of who or where you got this information, and form your own understanding. Regardless of your sex or orientation, you will not be slotted into a predetermined place in Society. You will have choices just like we do now. We will be put in areas that fit us as an individual, not our sex or who we decide to love.
Do not worry about the future so much, focus on getting the things done right here and now. Let everything fall into place. Focusing on your own advancement pays off for others as well. For if you unlock the knowledge and wisdom you can share it with others. If you are always worried about the progression of others constantly, then when do you get the time needed for your own soul? This is in no way narcissistic, but a necessary path to Godhead. I have done this myself, and have gotten lost in trying to find who I am; especially my sexual orientation. But in all reality if we just meditate and advance; our soul will reveal the answers we seek. So whenever you begin to worry or feel confused, just meditate and void. We all get excited and want to take on a major meditation program; and ignore the fact that it will be extremely difficult and strenuous. And at some point you have to drop something, setting you back. The manipulation of raising and lowering Bio-electricity is a very sensitive practice that must be done with caution. If you raise too much, it may hurt your mind, body and nervous system. If you let it drop too fast or too far, then you could have a wide range of negative consequences. Something that I have been told over and over again by The Gods is to be patient and relax. All good things come in time, be free and meditate.
As you advance you soul, there will be times that you have "spiritual venting". This is when you open chakras and pathways in your soul. There can be traumas and hang-ups that get trapped in the soul. These can even be from multiple lives, for example a fear or phobia that you do not understand. It could that you had a negative experience that carried over from multiple past lives. They must be released and resolved, to do this we must open and free our souls. Depending on how much advancing you have done in your past lives, can vary from person to person. But in the end we reach the same conclusion, a Free and Powerful Soul. It is important in these times of "venting" that we stay in control. Remembering it is a good thing, even though it may feel as if your world is coming down on top of you. This is one of the many reasons being able to void throughout most of the day, is a handy and crucial ability. In these times just focus on Satan and the Gods that you have established a connection to. They are always there guiding us through our lives.
We have a difficult but rewarding path, that only the strong can follow. If you Dedicated and put forth that effort to meditate everyday. Then you have already done something that sadly most of the world still can not. It is up to our people to be as strong and intelligent as time allows. For we are ushering in the New Era, where we are all free and there will be so many looking for answers. Now is the time to learn and build, have a strong foundation and make your knowledge concrete.
Hail The Mighty Gods of Duat!!
- Wake up My Gentiles,
Your world has been stolen from You, and the time has come to take it back.
For too long Our enemy has torn apart and destroyed this world.
Stand tall, Stand above the rest,
Peel back the Veil and peer into the Unknown,
Fear not the possibilities, but embrace them,
Shine Your light across the Universe,
Share Your love and knowledge with this world,
For it needs it beyond any doubt.
When the Walls of Lies and Deceit fall
This World will be thrown into despair,
Our people will rise to the task and usher in the New Era of Awakening and Freedom,
I will create a Safe and Empowering environment for all of those who choose to follow Me.
There have been times, when we may come across those who have done "The Dedication"; but have not stayed consistent with a meditation program. Sometimes they may have never even practiced yoga or meditated. It is understandable if they have not been dedicated long, but for the ones who have been been SS for months or years, there is not much of an excuse. You can help these people only as much as they are willing to help themselves. We can not force anyone to meditate, or make them do anything else as a matter of fact. Satanism teaches us responsibility and helps us to see the the bigger picture. Satanism is a real and meaningful path, one the can not baby or hold the hands of those not willing to put the time or effort into their advancement. The SS who do not work for themselves or Satanism will be left behind. Satanism does not end at the Dedication, but just begins.
Say we have a "friend" or "loved one" who you would like to see dedicate or work for Satanism. Trying the aggressive approach probably will not work. For many we have found that even when you tell someone what to do in a soft or passive manner we get a similar result. One thing to always remember is that it is never your fault. You are only responsible for yourself and no one else.("unless you have small children") It is the same for everyone, we must take responsibility for our actions. If someone decides to be lazy or remain in the "dark", we can only try for so long before it will effect us in a negative way. In a non egotistical or narcissistic way, we have to focus on ourselves first. We have the hardest, but most rewarding path; do not let your environment stop you from being happy and reaching your destiny.
Always stay Strong and Positive, Satan and the Mighty Gods of Duat are always helping and guiding those who are dedicated to Satanism. They have shown us so much love and care, it is our duty to do the same in return.
From time to time I would get burnt out in my meditation program. As well as many other SS that I have talked to. One thing that I have learned is that the path of Satanism is an ever-evolving journey. If we listen to our soul and open ourselves to the Guidance of the Gods, then we will always progress forward. Plenty of times I would let my ego get in the way of advancement. I would either not pay attention to my intuition or would just be over-confident, and add more than I should of. Which would in the end hold me back and delay any real progression.
From communicating with others I have learned and expanded my horizons significantly. We often would talk about if we had just done Kundalini and Hatha yoga for the past so many years where we could be today. But the main thing to remember is that it is not what you could of done in the past but what you take from it. To never make mistakes in your life would mean that you were either born perfect or you never leave your comfort zone.
Our path has many rewards, but only if we work for them. We have the only path that holds any true meaning. Satan gave us life and the ultimate opportunity. We must take advantage of the life we have now, and not only advance ourselves but the whole of Humanity.
I was infatuated with a man who was very bad for me. (He liked to smoke and drink and cheat and lie... ) He had gotten out of the marine core and was coming to stay with me. The week before he got there, I had nightmares every night. The first night he stayed with me, I had a strange dream. In the dream I was staying in an evil dead looking cabin with friends and him. The others had left and i was in a room, and written on the window in red was “Mep”. He came into the room behind me and pushed me onto the bed. I looked up at the window again and it said, mephistopheles. (The spirit in the play Faust that refers to Satan) We started to have sex and I looked over and there was a lesser demon. I wasn’t afraid of the demon but afraid that he was there. It felt like I wasn’t suppose to be near him. The demon grabbed him and though him down the hallway. Then I woke up. We had broken up a few days later and I instantly felt much better without him around me.
"Light is Power" Lilith
This is my first post, I want this Blog to be a positive experience for everyone.
I dedicated back in the beginning of 2009, and the experience I have had for the past 5 years has shaped me into the strong and dedicated Satanist that I am today and will continue to be for the rest of my existence.
As I started my life as a SS (Spiritual Satanist) I like many others, was very excited. I committed myself to opening and empower my soul, but did not have much knowledge to do so. I came from a Christian background like a lot of others, so my knowledge regarding actual spirituality was very limiting. I began the Spiritual warfare manual, and it started to change how I viewed myself and Satanism. I was not sure of how things actually worked, I tried Wicca and other "So called Pagan" paths. But none of them capture the truth or what is reality, but only imagination and ignorance. They just like the Christians hold these fantasies in there closed and weak minds. They do not understand the science that goes into magick or "prayer". They see it as this mystical nonsense that just happens. But it is far more than this, and it can be explained much further. I will go more into this another time.
I did not make it far into the training manual as like many other things in my life. I stopped after about the 2nd or 3rd month mark. I did not understand at that time that you have to stay consistent and not start and stop things. After I did the dedication, I noticed thing started to happen in my life, but they were positive things. Everything started to go my way, and I used to have bad luck through out my life as a mundane. Things like I dropped out of high school and was just going to get a GED. But as I did this I was accepted into a branch of the school that was all on computers, and was only 3 hours and was close to where I lived. I lived in a rural area, so that was a accommodating factor. Then I signed up for the Army, but the problem was that I was suppose to leave for basic training before I was going to graduate. I managed to get all of my classes and credits done, but I was still going to have to stay until the end of the school year. I was allowed to graduate 5 months early so I could still go to the Army. These are the glories of being a dedicated SS, and the more you do for Satan the more he does for you. Now part of life is to have ups and downs, being a SS you have the ability to not be at the whims of the universe and take control of your reality. I wished I had the knowledge that I do now about how everything works. But that is the beauty of it, looking back and being able to say, wow I have come so far and am continuing to improve myself and work for Satan in so many ways. My time in the military between being in Garrison and my time in Afghanistan, I had a hard time. I learned the hard way to keep secrets, for when people especially people you cant get away from find out that you are a Pagan or Satanist. People even if they are not Christians or whatever they still do not understand, and everyone who is not dedicated is not to be trusted for they are "Agents of the Enemy". They have no control of their lives and they will try and make your life harder do to the fact that the enemy has control of their minds and actions. It is sad that many of us find that the family and friends that we have always known will turn on us in a instant.
The past 5 years that I have been a SS, I have traveled and met over 10 SS in person. And from meeting these people I have gained much experience that I feel most do not have. This is because talking with someone over the internet is so much different than being face to face. I struggled with a ego problem that every SS out of everyone that I have either met in person or over the internet has at some point had an ego problem. I think it is do to the fact that we are surrounded by mundanes with low levels of energy and are still in the dark about the truth, that we feel much more highly of ourselves. There is a fine line between having pride and being Egotistical. Something that I have learned along the way is that Satan stomps out egotism. It is detrimental to the whole, for you are too worried about yourself. If Satan and the Gods were to stop and help everyone every time we got our feelings hurt then nothing would ever be accomplished. From meeting these other SS, I have also found the "infighting" to be very serious. Some people disregard the warning of trying to hurt a fellow brother/ sister of Satan. These people who step over that boundary are punished and are to learn from their mistakes. Everything that happens to us, I feel is Satan's will. Whether it be a positive or negative experience, it is a lesson to be learned. So many times I have wanted to give up and quit. There were times that my life seemed out of control, but we learn to trust in Satan and let His Will guide us. Many of us have found that patience plays the biggest part of getting through the bad times and advancing our souls. For when we would rush things, they would never work out.
To sum up these 5 years, I have struggled and prevailed against odds that would topple the mundane. But with the Love and Guidance that Satan and the Gods have shown me and so many others. We can always make it, and come out on top. After all of the bad things that have happened, I can say that I am a SS and proud. I have an amazing life that I thank and contribute to Satan and the Gods for Blessing me with.
Never give up, and let Satan's Love shine upon your life. When you need help and do not know what to do or where to go, call out for Satan and he will answer. He is the Light in the Darkness.
HAIL THE MIGHTY GODS OF DUAT!!